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I had a long day today…
The earthquake drill this morning ate almost 90 minutes of first period. Nakita ko si ex from the other academy I came from, it was awk coz di na naman kame naguusap but at the end of the earthquake drill nakita ko na lang sya he was beside me he said hi and I said hello. I’m glad that after almost two years di na masyado masaket. Time heals all wounds nga sabi nila.
It was the last day of the campaign too. I feel accomplished being able to help out in the community plus I get to win prizes. Haha! I’m excited for the outcome of our hardwork for the past 2weeks. I can’t wait for my stipend too. YES! SHOPPING~ :)
It would’ve been a perfectly good day kung di ko pa sya tnxt. Ugh! Tangina. I’m so confused right now. Idk. I feel sooo stupid lang. I wish I could tell it to someone but then.. for now, I just like to keep it to myself. Pero yung feeling na sasabog ka na, nakaka-heart attack.
Aight. I admit. I like you~
Making the same mistakes again. Ugh
I’m trying my best to avoid you or at least distance myself from you. It never works out for me, never…
Tangina. Di ko alam. Idek what I’m feeling. Alam ko di pa ko over sa kanya, nor long forgotten about him but whenever I’m with you, it’s like… I feel more like myself. Masaya. Yung sayang, iba na hindi ko nafe-feel kapaga kasama lang mga kaibigan ko. Maybe I’m thinking too much. Maybe, I’m making wrong assumptions here. Siguro kase nangyare nga yun, siguro kase hanggang ngayon I’m trying to forget about him and youre doing the same too. And maybe, we know that eto lang yung way para mabilis na makalimot. We both know it’s wrong and it also confuses me but maaang I hope it’s just like this, it would’ve been easier though it selfish and I know it isn’t the right way either. Idk. I just, I don’t know anymore
My Dearest Allie,
I couldn’t sleep last night because I know that it’s over between us. I’m not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I’ll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that’s what you’ve given me. That’s what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I’ll be seeing you.
It changed everything… There I was trying to figure out what I did wrong. I know I did something wrong and there’s something inside of me directing me to bring back what we had. The friendship at least. It’s so ironic that we’re both in church, serving God in any possible way we could yet this one thing happened that I know will forever stain our friendship.. Yes, I regret it but at the same time I was happy because for weeks I became happy again though I wish it never ended. I know it’s messed up that I’m getting over him and you’re getting over her but I was glad we got each others back that very moment we really needed the most. It’s just, we’re vulnerable those days and I couldn’t really blame it all to you because it was our friendship.. I just wish it never happened. I can’t never be the same towards you and we could never be the same.
These past few months, feeling ko di umaayon saken tadhana even luck. Di ako natanggap sa dream school ko, and I do regret not trying my very best to be able to get where I wanted to be. But then thinking about it,at least I’m going to college for free.
It’s been almost 4 months since nakita ko sya, madaming nagsasabi it’s not my loss it’s his but I know in myself that it is mine too. He might not really be the right guy but he was the first guy I’ve ever felt this way to. Two years might not be that long, but for me it seemed forever, it felt forever. I thought knew him and I thought what we had that time was mutual only to find out the next day it wasnt. It does sucks, so much, that after months I’m still in grief and I gotta admit I miss him and I just wish that things would just go back to where it started and where it used to be. The bliss. The fun. The happiness of being with someone, with someone that I thought understood me when really no one ever did.
My friendship with mostly my close friends has been on the bumps for like forever. I don’t know what’s up with me but I just got used to shutting people off and isolating myself from the matrix. I miss having them, I miss being who I used to be. I don’t even feel like ‘me’ anymore and it sucks.
Chillin’ like a villain with @hermelinda94 #kimberly #calculus #theoutsiders
Came to @mikeemaralit ‘s house to fax documents and his dad tryna rip me off haha (: